Oh the waiting! It is torture!
About a week ago I gave my draft manuscript of Blood for the Dying to more than a dozen friends for feedback. Since then I have been very anxious for feedback. It is my first novel, and all I can think is "will they like it?" and "will they be honest?" and "what if they hate it?". Well that is not entirely true, I am thinking of other things as well, but those thoughts come up often.
I can only imagine what it must be like once you actually publish for real. I am certainly not looking forward to my first one star review on Amazon or Goodreads. No matter what I do I am sure that they are sure to come. At least I won't have to put up with all the rejection letters from publishers. I suppose that is one advantage to self-publishing. Traditional publishing certainly does not protect writers from one star reviews, that is for sure.
I suppose the best medicine for this is to keep writing and keep getting better. Then again, after working so hard I am also feeling to need to take a little bit of time off to recharge the creative batteries. Nanowrimo starts in November as usual, so maybe I will take it easy until then. As fun as it is, writing is still like a job in many ways. A few weeks cold turkey won't hurt. As I said in my last post, I will be putting Blood for the Dying on ice for a little bit, so Nanowrimo will be a great chance to get my orcs novel done.
In the mean time, more waiting. I am not sure whether the waiting or the getting bad reviews is worse yet, but I am sure that they are both pretty sucky.